a break. breaking.

trying to reel it in, which feels wrong.

A couple weeks ago, my husband (Evan) told me that he thought I was doing too much—taking too much on. And then last week, my therapist told me the same exact thing and I heard it. This drives Evan crazy. It’s not that I don’t hear him, it’s just that I’m a huge believer in a second opinion. (unless you’re Cup of Jo or Poog… I’ll do whatever they say… buy whatever they’re selling.)

It’s not yesterday. I didn’t get a newsletter out on Tuesday. I couldn’t do it. So, I’m taking a break from this little newsletter. For a couple weeks? For a week? For a month? I don’t know. (which drives me bonkers.)

When my therapist told me that I need to stop putting so much pressure on myself, I told her, “I agree. And I need to be nicer to myself, because Marcie is always around, absorbing everything. I don’t want her to think that her worth is connected to anything. So I need to be a better example.”

She quickly pointed out that I’m now putting pressure on myself to be a better mom. Jesus, I need a break from myself. I run a tight ship.

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Breaking:

The flowers are pushing their way through soil in Seattle. It feels hopeful, but it’s still cold. There is so much breaking throughout the world and likely within yourself. It feels like we’re all breaking, but hopefully it will be a bit of a breaking through. Flowers at the end of the cold.

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Quick Hits:

• A Playlist for You: Feeling It Before It’s Gone.

  (I’ve been listening to this playlist on repeat. I hope you find something you like or need in it.)

• Prints for Ukraine.
  (one of my favorite illustrators is donating 25% of profits to Ukraine through tomorrow. get yourself some gorgeous art.)

• Music that Matters.
  (I work for the best radio station in the world and this week is our Spring Fundraising Drive. if you’re not listening to KEXP, what are you doing with your life? if you are, consider giving us a gift!)
  

Consider this a hug. (mmmmmmmmm!!!) Love ya, bitch.

xxo,
rachel.