life & renewal at the edge of the earth.
and some lightning.
It’s amazing what a little sunshine* can do to your soul. Let me be clear. This isn’t Seattle sunshine. Evan, Marcelline, and I just got back from Texas. A trip to see my family and celebrate Marcie turning TWO. Wow. Nostalgia feels like too light a word to describe how this trip home went. It was like I was living through my childhood through my child. The days were lazy. I didn’t read a lick—just like when I was a child. Marcie wanted to go in the backyard as much as possible. And we all hung out back there with her and just chilled. No agenda. Well, Marcie had an agenda. She needed to move water from fountain to fountain. She needed to make sure a good amount of golf balls were in each fountain. She wanted to run through the hose at every opportunity. More so, she wanted to squirt people with the hose.
Marcie ventured out to the back fence—near where cattle and horses used to graze. I hand this wild feeling within me as I remembered how far away this used to feel. How big this yard used to be—it was my whole world. And this was adventuring to the edge of the earth. I was right there with her now, feeling the same as I used to. Only now, 35 years later, instead of wondering what was out there and being a little scared of it all, I stared out, at the edge of life, and asked, “Alright. What else you got?”
*and upping your Zoloft prescription dosage by 50%.
A Little Woo:
It’s Aries Season: And you know what THAT means?? Me neither, really. I did read this article about rebirth and renewal, tho. At first, I was like, “god, aren’t I always trying to renew myself??”
I mean, that may be why I give myself a little baptism each month. But even if that’s a tad bit true, I know that rebirth… renewal… does not come easy. Sometimes it doesn’t come at all—even when you want it the most. I feel like I wrote in a journal for two years how stuck I felt. Then—bam!—it all hit at once. And it’s not easy or painless or necessarily fun—kind of like real birth. But it’s awesome. So I’m here for renewal. Rebirth. Let’s do this shit.
Quick Hits:
Jam of the Week: Arcade Fire - The Lightning I, II.
(my favorite band of all time has a new song. they’ve been doing secret shows in New York and live-streaming them on Instagram. Marcie and I watched a show the other night on the kitchen floor and then on the couch. it was magic. this song, new album was recorded in tumultuous times. but in special times. read the powerful words Win Butler said about it. god, I’m so excited this band is putting out new music.)
My Fave Show Right Now.
(Amy is laugh-out-loud hilarious, but I didn’t realize how deep and beautiful her work could be. this show is meeting me where I am and I’m here for it. also, young Beth is a spectacular actor… though the pain of adolescence is a little too real. 😩)This Truly Was The March Madness We Needed.
(I wish I would’ve had drag queens in my life DECADES ago, but now that they’re here, I want as much as I can get. if you’re not watching RuPaul’s Drag Race or going to local drag shows on the regular, you’re missing out on a HUGE life-hack for happiness.)Ah-Mazing New Podcast.
(so proud to the team putting this together. if you’re into music or the Seattle scene or beautiful sound design or great storytelling, I highly recommend checking this out.)Okay, My Latest Podcast Work.
(it was really special interviewing this friend from high school about his new music. then when this was released, I was actually in my hometown, which was also special.)This Gave Me Absolute Joy.
(I hope it brings you some, too.)
There is more sunshine coming. I can feel it.
xxo,
rachel.