my monthly resolution.
and the cinematic feel of it all.
A low-stakes, all-fun resolution I had in 2021 was to jump into water (preferably earth water—lakes, ocean, river, etc.) at least once each month. To take a moment each month for a bit of a baptism. I’ve decided to do it again in 2022. In the cold months, there is something almost cinematic about these dips. On a Summer day at Madison Beach in Seattle, you have to lay claim to your patch of sand. There are lifeguards and diving boards a bit off shore with a roaring audience. In February, there is no one. It’s a closed set. You throw your clothes off like a robe and are ready for action. You run into the grayness and coldness and then the air changes—from too cold to almost warm. The warmth of a false spotlight. I look back to shore—my audience of two. (husband and daughter.) Is my daughter directing this? If so, I think she’s disappointed. We might need a few more takes. But the feeling of it is familiar and refreshing and—dare I say—hopeful. This cinematic feeling is somewhere between the ending of The Truman Show and Eternal Sunshine—which are both actually beginnings in their own way.
A Little Woo:
That Moon Again: There’s a new moon tomorrow. New moons are all about trying new things, bringing more stuff into your world, and claiming what you want more of in your life. I love the way this article talks about the foolishness of newness. We ALL look like idiots at the beginning of new things! And it’s glorious.
*reads my horoscope.*
horoscope: “consider a small change to your aesthetic to help your confidence.”
me in the mirror to me: okay, everything has to change to make sure I get that confidence.
Quick Hits:
Jam of the Week: BANKS – Holding Back.
(as soon as I heard this song, I knew I wanted to listen to it again… and again… and again. no, I’ve never been diagnosed with an obsessive disorder… why do you ask?)
Legit Cannot Wait for this Tour.
(ready ready ready… ready to runnnn! but honestly I’ve never seen Patty Griffin and she’s one of my favorite songwriters.)It’s International Women’s Month!
(what does that mean? I don’t really know.)I Needed This Beautiful Reminder.
(read it if you’re every stressed about not accomplishing enough… aka me every day/month/year/decade of my life.)LOL.
(do you think I’ll be lucky enough to have Marcie do funny stuff like this? or will my love for stuff like this squelch her?)We’re FINALLY Watching The Best Show on TV Right Now.
(it’s so intense. it’s too intense. when I explained it to the people I volunteer with, they said, “okay, now WHY are you watching this?” because it’s SO GOOD. but don’t watch it, Mom.)Speaking of Intense.
(what’s happening in Ukraine is absolutely heartbreaking. I stand with Ukraine. I’m figuring out what that means beyond just donating the little that I can, but until then. )
I am so grateful for you. Take care of yourself and each other.
xxo,
rachel.